Wednesday, December 1, 2010
December and the holidays in Japan DO NOT feel like Christmas at all, no matter how many tacky Christmas decorations I see and Christmas songs I hear everywhere I go. Sorry Japan, but you just cannot do Christmas, and to be fair, why would they have to, since it's a Christian holiday. I've had a very hard time getting into the whole holiday spirit this time around, as it's so warm and sunny, and to me, Christmas requires snow. Also, being away from my family and friends makes it very sad and difficult, as I won't be able to make it home this time around... for the third time in a row.
I miss going to Christmas parties and drinking champagne and eating nice foods, and just staying warm while the snow falls. I miss my friends more than ever now. I'm worried that living in the countryside has turned me into a frumpy, unsophisticated person. It's ridiculous, right? Sometimes the isolation really gets the best of me, and I feel so detached from everything and everyone. Thankfully, I have an amazing group of friends here in Japan, and I'm so fortunate for them.
Re-reading past entries of this blog, it makes me appreciate what I'm experiencing, even though this means giving up on a lot of other things I want. I tackled this issue before, but I do realize that my life seems so fun in Japan and my writing is usually very happy and upbeat. I also sound like a very well-balanced person, which does not always seem to be the case when I'm having random mini meltdowns. I usually choose to write about the good side of things, as I love Japan so much, but some days are oh so difficult and lonely.
I'm welcoming December with open arms and an open heart, and kicking it off with a LAST (obligatory) trip to my beloved Osaka, this time to go apartment hunting! It's stressful, costly, but very exciting. Stay tuned...